Things have a funny way of working out. One minute you could be worrying over nothing, and then the next you could be excited about something that you have always wanted to do. Receiving news of any kind, be it good or bad, is sure to bring a reaction out in someone, even if it is just a blank stare with nothing to say, that's a form of shock you know. Anyway, the point is, some news only affects your life short term, and some news affects your life long term.
"Jay!... Jay, come here! I need to talk to you!" I yelled through the house, hoping that whichever room Jay happened to be in, he could hear me and would come to me within a few moments. There was something really important that I needed to talk to him about. 
"What is it, love?" Jay asked with a gentleness to his voice that not many men could ever possess. He smiled at me, and looked at me through his big green eyes. I could just stare at those eyes forever, and lose myself inside of them. They were definitely something to behold.
"Well.. It's some interesting news that I thought you might like to know.." My voice trailed off for a moment, while my brain was trying to come up with the exact way that I wanted to word this.
However, I failed at thinking of a creative way to say what I needed to. So I took a deep breath, and looked at Jay with loving, yet nervous eyes as my mouth opened and before I could really believe what I was saying, I said it.
"I'm pregnant." A sigh of relief escaped my lips as I continued to look at him with worry, and nervousness filling my body. It was hard enough for me to comprehend this whole thing, but if it hadn't been for all six of the pregnancy tests I took this morning, I wouldn't have believed it. Well that and the fact that in two weeks I had become so bloated that I could only fit into my athletic wear and the nausea that I had experienced before never went away.
"Wait, what?" Jay sputtered as he looked at me with his eyes wide in surprise, and his mouth hanging open.
"I'm pregnant, Jay... We're having a baby. I took six tests, I'll show them to you if you don't believe me." I replied.
"That's great!" Jay exclaimed, his voice filled with excitement and happiness as he came forward and pulled me into a hug. "I can't believe it.. We're going to be parents.. I'm going to be a daddy! I love you so much, Estelle."
"I love you too Jay." It was so adorable at how excited and happy he was over hearing this news. It also eased my mind a bit that Jay didn't react badly to hearing the news of the pregnancy. I knew that he wanted kids one day, I just didn't realize that starting a family would come so soon for us.
The truth of it is that, Jay's excitement has seemed to overshadow my own. Yes, I'm happy, and excited... I'm just not really prepared, and it feels like I'm more nervous and scared than happy. Honestly, I really thought that Jay and I would have been married for more than two months before starting a family. Life really does have a funny way of working out it seems.. I just hope that somehow I can get more excited and feel a little more at ease with bringing a new life into this world. Because right now, all I feel like doing is hiding for the next eight months.
OOOOOh a tiny newborn..how will Estelle juggle her already demanding job with a little one on the way...Jay will have a lot on his plate having to juggle the care of a new baby and his budding painting career..but this couple seem to be able to weather alot together...they are truely so cute together!
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