This morning sickness was the worst anyone could ever endure. For about two weeks now that all I've been doing every morning at exactly seven o'clock in the morning, it never failed. My stomach may have been in knots and I may have been extremely tired, but it didn't stop me from doing what I needed to during the day.
Doing laundry for three people, while being extremely tired and nauseous is not fun at all, there were days that I would just look at the clothes hamper and sigh, hanging my head in defeat. All I wanted to do these days was sleep, but I couldn't. There was no way that I was going to let Jay care for the house, and for Blaine while I was on maternity leave, his painting career had finally taken off and he was getting calls from a couple celebrities here and there to paint a masterpiece for their personal galleries.
On this particular morning after my shower and getting Blaine and myself some breakfast, I decided to spend the day outside enjoying the sunshine. I figured it would be a very good way to get Blaine out of the house as well, and it would give Jay a few uninterrupted hours to work on a new painting for a client. Life was definitely very, very busy for us now.
Since we didn't live very far from one of the Twinbrook bridges, I thought that would be a nice place to make our turn around spot. The walk was fairly long for me, but Blaine enjoyed it. The whole time we strolled down the sidewalk he would ask a hundred questions about every car, tree, flower, sign, etc. that he saw and was just so eager to learn about everything. Everything he does seems to be so much more advanced that other kids his age, he learnt how walk and talk earlier than most kids I've seen, and he wasn't hard to potty train at all. Being a mother to Blaine was fairly hard in the beginning when he was a newborn, mostly because I operated on very little sleep, but now that he was almost school-aged, things were so much easier. Sure he would get into trouble, since he's just a kid, but for the most part if his father or I told him no, he would listen.
Our walk lasted the whole day, we had stopped at the bridge for a few minutes to look at the lake, but then decided to walk a little more since the weather was so warm. Soon though it was time to return home. On the walk home, my stomach began to feel very weird and I knew that I was in for another round of vomiting. This pregnancy literally kept my head in the toliet at least once a day, and today it seemed like once wasn't enough. I only hoped that I could make it home in time to get to the bathroom, or the kitchen sink.
Thankfully I was able to make it home, and felt that it would be best to get to the bathroom so that I would avoid making Jay lose his appetite, or scare Blaine. By now it was close to five o'clock which meant it was almost dinner time.
After I was finished vomiting, I got washed up and came downstairs to fix dinner. Tonight we were having spaghetti, I have been craving it like crazy since becoming pregnant. It was weird though, because as much as I've been eating with this baby, I hadn't started to show really. My non-maternity clothes still fit, and if I'm remembering correctly, when I was pregnant with Blaine I was in maternity wear fairly quick. I suppose it's true that no two pregnancies are exactly the same. The spaghetti didn't take long to cook, and my mouth was already watering from the aroma the food was letting off. Pretty soon the food was finished and it was ready to serve.
Blaine wasn't normally a picky eater, but sometimes he would do a taste test just to be sure that he really did like what was being served to him. Needless to say our little toddler was very happy with the meal that had been fixed for him. Dinner time was never a hassle with him, the only thing that was a hassle was the clean up time, he didn't play in his food or throw it, he was just a very sloppy eater.
"So how was your day Jay?" I asked as I brought a bite of spaghetti to my mouth.
"It was good. But it was pretty boring without you and Blaine here all afternoon.. I finished the painting, and then cleaned some."
"Sorry. Maybe next time we call all go on a walk, or something."
"That would be nice." He replied, smiling at me. The rest of our conversation and dinner included various subjects, from the latest gossip around town to the new movies that are coming out in the theater soon, to how excited we were for the arrival of our second child.
"Man.. I'm tired.." My voice was laced with exhaustion as I stretched and yawned really big, my eyes felt heavy and I was having trouble focusing on staying awake long enough to get up the steps to the bedroom. It had been a very long day, Blaine still needed a bath and to get into his pajamas, I didn't want to ask Jay to do the bedtime routine tonight, but it felt as if my body was just going to shut down and go into hiberation mode any second now.
"Are you okay, sweetheart?" Jay asked, walking up to me, his eyes were filled with worry and he stood there waiting for my reply.
"I'm just really, really tired.. But it's my turn to put Blaine to bed tonight, and I just don't know if I can do it without falling asleep myself..." I admitted, looking into Jay's eyes as another yawn escaped from me.
"It's okay, go on to bed, you need the rest... After all you're growing a baby in there, that's really hard work."
"Are you sure though? I know you're tired too.."
"Yes, I'm sure. I'll see you in the morning." Jay smiled, pulling me into a hug.
"Okay then." I replied, hugging him back, feeling the warmth of his embrace around me. After hugging for a few moments, I pulled back and then gave him a small kiss on the lips. "Goodnight, I love you."
"I love you too." Jay replied softly as he watched me walk towards the stairs. "Sweet dreams.."
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Months passed and as my pregnancy progressed I finally began to show more. Everyone could definitely tell that I was pregnant now. A lot of people asked me if it was my first child if I was at the grocery store alone, or if Jay and I were out by ourselves on a date (assuming we were lucky enough to find a good babysitter for a couple of hours). Which when people would ask if this was my first pregnancy, I would smile and then politely tell them that I or we already have a son who is almost school age. Most people were shocked to learn this bit of information, and would then go on to ask how long we've been married or together, and all sorts of other personal information. If any of the questions got too personal though, we would politely tell the other people that we weren't comfortable answering that sort of question and then go on about our business.
"You're going to be a big brother, Blaine" I said gently, "isn't that exciting?"
"Yeah!" He exclaimed, showing his excitement. He was starting to understand that there was a baby growing inside of my belly and that when the baby arrived he would be a big brother. He may not have truly understood yet, but he could sense the excitement that his father and I were feeling about the new baby's arrival, so of course he would eventually pick up on it.
Jay has continued to be an excellent father and husband. Each day that I wake up next to him, I smile to myself and wonder what I have done in this life to make me so lucky to have made this man my husband.
Soon it was time for Blaine's birthday, and for this party we decided that it would just be the three of us, plus the new little one growing in my womb. It was a lot less stressful on me that way, and I wouldn't have to worry about having a ton of people in our house and the major clean up afterward. It was hard to believe that our little boy was going to be starting school soon, as well as coming to grips with just how much time has passed by since we had him. The birthday celebration was perfect, and we couldn't be prouder of our son.
Before long it was time for bed, and I for one couldn't have been happier. Jay and I peeked into Blaine's newly redecorated bedroom to see how he liked his new loft bed, and to our surprise when we checked in on him, he was already sound asleep. The poor little guy must have been tuckered out from the days events. Good thing that he went to sleep so soon though, because school was just around the corner for him.
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